dear aj.

you're probably not gonna read this. but i don't care. i'll just pretend.

December 2008 was the happiest month of my life. all thanks to you. we made so many memories and we've had so much fun. for that, i thank you. you have treated me like a fucking king. you're the best boyfriend anyone can ask for. you have made me truly happy. i don't wanna lose that. i wanna be happy. with you. i wanna make more memories with you. we have so much going for us. and i'm sure we can last a hell of a long time.

whenever i think about you, i still get butterflies. i feel so happy inside. my favorite memory? the day you came over and told me everything that was going on between ann and me. that was the same day you told me that you were so lucky to have me. i will never forget that, aj. that meant so much to me. you don't even know.

i'm sorry for how i've been acting this past week. i'm sorry if i've been overly clingy. i'm sorry if i've been overreacting. i'm being so stupid. i pray for you every night. that God keeps you healthy and happy. i promise i'll stop overreacting and being so blah. i'm gonna make the most out of everything. i trust you.

i trust you won't hurt me intentionally, either. you told me i was different. you said you won't treat me like another chris. don't be mad. but me and marella were talking. and she told me about what you told her. she told me that you said that i was different. and you were planning on introducing me to your parents before they left for the homeland. in doing that, you're basically coming out to them. no guy has ever done that for me. i doubt guys have even thought of doing that for me. that is so sweet. if you do that, i will definitely introduce the real you to my mom. i've thought about it, but i've been scared. now, i've never been so sure in my whole life. provided we're still together, i'll introduce you to her on my birthday, my most special day. i'll still introduce you if you don't. :P

aj, you mean so much to me. i hope you feel the same way. i hope i have helped you become a better man, like you said i did. all i want is for us to be happy, whether or not it's together. i'd prefer it together, but as long as you're happy. that's all i care about. <3

sincerely,
your boyfriend marc.