Bittersweet.

On one hand, I'm happy I made it to UFPx. It's training. It's a team. Dance is dance. Yadig.

But on the other hand .. I really wanted to make it to UFP. I wanted to compete. I felt so ready. I just disappointed myself, I guess. If I took the initiative to practice a little bit more before my audition, maybe I wouldn't have fucked up as badly as I did. Maybe it didn't even have anything to do with my audition. Maybe it was more of .. they don't think I'm ready yet.

As a dancer, I've definitely grown from my humble beginnings on FR3SH Juniors. But at the same time, am I good enough for UFP? I thought so, but then again, opinions differ. Maybe this is God's way of saying that I need more training. That I'm not as good as I thought I was. I'm really not a cocky person, but I was pretty confident in myself that I made it to UFP. Ahh wells.

I will make the most of this. I will train as hard as I can on UFPx. I will make it to UFP. Swearsies.

And plus .. I have my eyecandy. SCORE. <3